Ugh, I am just 110% off my game today. Deadlifts were nearly impossible and front squats are making me want to puke, even light ones. My body is probably ready for deload week, I guess.
Thank YOU. <3
February’s 1RM is April’s 3RM. I’ll take it.
Excellent! And here is one for your day and all days! :D
Yes I have, and I tried it out for about three weeks. I didn’t find it very difficult mentally or foodwise, as I am already a lacto-ovo vegetarian and I eat a lot of soy and beans. But, I felt like it was somewhat detrimental to my performance in the gym. My speed and strength decreased considerably, and I was lacking in energy. I eventually decided to bring moderate amounts of dairy back into my diet. Since then I’ve also added egg whites, and have been happy to see a noticeable gain in muscle mass and physical strength after three months of eating them for lunch on lifting days!
I think the vegan lifestyle can be wonderful for many people and most certainly has its health benefits. It’s not quite the right fit for me though. I quite enjoy being a vegetarian and am happy with my lifestyle.
Still chugging on through my vegetarian proteins article, haha. I have got to figure out a way to turn this stuff into a career.
Open ask tonight I guess? Anons are welcome! :)
Why Women Need Iron
Women need iron. Not the vitamin. The barbell.
We are trained by the world around us to have fucked up ideas about our bodies; iron unfucks them.
We are supposed to be as thin as possible, as small as possible, perhaps until we disappear; iron teaches us to take up space.
We are taught that the only good direction for the scale to go is down, and to agonize ritualistically when it goes up. Iron teaches us the power of gaining weight for strength and gives us another weight to care about – the weight we are lifting.
We are taught to eat small amounts daintily and treat food as sin and pleasure. Iron teaches us to eat heartily, to see food as fuel for life, and to seek out nutritious food rather than avoiding sinful food.
We are taught to think of our bodies as decorative, an object to be looked at; iron teaches us to think of our bodies as functional, our own active selves, not passive objects for another’s regard.
Whole industries exist to profit by removing from us our confidence and selling it back as external objects. Iron gives us confidence from within through progressive training and measurable achievements.
We are taught to be gentle and hide our strength or even to cultivate charming physical weakness until we start to believe our bodies are weak. Iron teaches us how strong we can be.
If you force your body into making “fitness goals” while actively restricting, you are not going to see the results you want. You are only going to get sicker. Fitness is a physical, mental, and emotional thing. It involves striving for complete, overall health. If you are refusing to try restoring your body to physical health, you cannot improve your fitness. I’m sorry if I am sounding harsh, but I really hope you realize how disordered this thought process is. Picking up a new fitness routine while underweight, especially if it’s underweight due to ED, can easily kill you.
Trying to make fitness improvements while actively restricting is like saying “I’m going to learn to play the piano but I’m also deliberately going to cut my hands off.” I do strongly encourage you to make positive fitness goals! But, I recommend that you use your fitness goals as a way to cope with the scale weight you will gain during recovery. (or even better, maybe a goal to work towards is to not weigh yourself/weigh yourself less as you work on fitness and recovery? <3)
I know it sounds like the most terrifying thing, but intense fear of weight gain is literally a mental, physiological side effect of physical starvation. If you gain weight, over time you will be less terrified of gaining weight because your body will no longer be panicking and your hormones will start to go back to normal.
It sounds like you may benefit from a little support (if you don’t have some already) so I will encourage you to check out the NEDA site and perhaps find a discussion group near you. These are open groups that are in a neutral, non-medical environment and are not overseen by medical professionals. If you need more resources, these groups are a good way to find them in your area.
Any recovery blogs that want to contribute to this response would be appreciated. And anon, we are here for you. <3